Birthday

Aunty's birthday coming. It is on this Monday.
Jealousy. Been talking to her much lately but not me. Always talk back to me while no talking back to her. Until now it is still the same. Wishes that this time would stop. I don't like this. It is done by my aunty. I'm very sad. Deciding whether still need to surprise her on her b'day. Bought for a ARIES necklace, asked my senior to create a song for her and buy a song birthday card for her. Song i just learnt yesterday(lyrics plus the cords on my guitar:. Just that my guitar srting is spoil. Going to fix it tomorrow. Learnt a few though. I know my aunty is still treating me badly, but i still love her so much that i could not bear to be angry with her for 30 mins. Still giving her the surprise. Hoping that this surprise would prove my love for her.:/ Sad..:'( Sometimes feel like crying each time she talks back at me. My super red heart turn into a red heart which was, in the end, shattered into pieces. Just someday she will know. More in my personal diary ( a book) which you CAN'T read them.:/
Feel like crying now but cousins are now here. Can't cry now.:'(. Just cry in my heart. Bottling up my feelings......:( :'(